Today it got real
- Alison Baldwin
- Aug 24, 2019
- 2 min read
So, for many weeks we have been talking about our transition to running a bar in Southern France. It has all been real, but also very not real. That is because we have been doing all of the planning, discussing, even the signing of the contract for the property and business from across the Atlantic. Today , it got real.
I dropped Richard off at the airport today to travel to France to take the beverage and food regulations courses he needs for the transfer of the licenses for the bar. I came back to an empty house - my oldest child is back at college and my youngest was off with friends for the afternoon - and it suddenly felt very real that very soon we will be living on separate continents.
Now, I have always prided myself in being a very independent person. I don’t need someone to “take care” of me. I am the person who is usually taking care of everyone else. I was a single working Mom before I married Richard. Even since Richard and I married, I have had long stretches of handling everything on my own when he was traveling for work or at trial. in short, I was never worried about handling the kids, work and house on my own while Richard was running the business in France. That isn’t the part that hit me today.
The part that hit me today was not having him sitting on the porch, enjoying a beautiful Chicago summer evening and drinking a glass of wine with me. It is those little things that I think about that will be the hardest when we are having to live apart. I know me, and I know that tomorrow I will be busy and distracted with the million things that I need to do before that start of the week . Tomorrow I will focus again on the adventure of our path. But tonight there is no distraction and I will accept that this is the counterpoint to all of the excitement of our adventure. Tonight I will let myself be okay with being a little sad and missing Richard.
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